Words can't express everything that has happened this year. Suffice it to say that challenges come our way when we least expect it. I think I have handled this one reasonably well, all things considered, but sometimes you think your life is on track and suddenly you find the earth crumbling beneath your feet and begin to wonder what was or is real anymore.
I have a family member who says things to me like, "Trials will come your way! Just wait!" I always silently muse because it is proof of how private I really am. This, too, will pass unnoticed, but I will hear those words again and smile to myself. Of course I have trials. I just don't make them everyone else's business.
At any rate some things have set me back this year, so I now have this big to-do list hanging over my head. I have turned down some amazing business and professional opportunities that I normally would never give up, but at this time it was simply the right thing to do. I am submitting to the human side of myself instead of turning on superwoman and trying to work miracles from a grain of sand. It has been a comfortable place, and a part of me is grateful that for once I am not pushing myself so hard.
This post resonates very much with me for two reasons: 1. I also am a very private person (contrary to popular opinion which believes that I tell-all) :-) In fact, I've only recently decided to share something close to my heart on my blog, and that was only because I felt prompted repeatedly to share so that maybe someone somewhere would be helped by it. 2. The second reason this resonates is that I also have turned down several opportunities this year that I normally wouldn't. But I too know that though I am doing something out of the ordinary, it is definitely right for my family at this time. :-)
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